I'm drafting our story now, and we'll edit this with our co-ops who can do what I can't. The extended version of our journey is being added to the forward in our first book.
– FAN xx
We Roarhearts are a bunch of autonomous Powerfully Determined Autodidactics and egalitarians, Asking and Listening deeply to ourselves and one another from a place of neutrality - no judgement or advice.
Robinski, our wisest Cooperative member, wrote, aged 31, the beautiful poem A New Life Awaits. The same year divorcing my other parent, and together quit drinking to regulate naturally. I drew pictures and wrote to myself and them as I didn't talk much. Instead, I rocked a lot and spent much time alone in my head and bedroom with a fan blowing.
THE FIRST BOOK
In a managerial role, I helped establish an Affirmative Action Program for equal opportunities at a national company before quitting despite promotion offers. I stopped drinking alcohol, afraid the way I drank would kill me and quit purging to regulate my mind, heart and body. At this time, I took off to the beach, joined a self-help group and started to see a psychiatrist who suggested I write out my thoughts and feelings. So super reluctantly, I did—one word at a time. I created art when I couldn't find the words and put off binging.
TYPING THE FIRST BOOK
I embarked upon a "sabbatical" (aka unemployment benefits) and took up singing, guitar and theatre. I healed my 10-year Eating OCD (starving, dieting, over-eating/binging to change my body) with my Stretch, Embrace & Soar questions. Despite not being a great writer, I felt I was to write a book. A follow Eating OCD'er suggested I type up my journals. So, I did— one word at a time.
STUDIES, EXPERIENCE AND BIRTH
I studied Graphic Arts, won awards and designed and printed the first draft of my journals into a book.
I taught in the same field at the tertiary level and
gave birth instantaneously became a full-time parent.
Robinski developed and passed onto me a series of questions to return us back to the moment, relieving and regulating our anxieties and OCD's, which later I expanded into Feeling the Freedom
PROGRAMS AND CHRONIC ILLNESS
I entered the first year of fibromyalgia, losing several 22 year long friendships. With no energy or clear mind, a lovely beloved and I developed and delivered meditation and creative self-discovery workshops, programs and a retreat. Around this time, I created Deep Asking Deeply to reach into the deepest part of self to transform my trauma, what's driving my decisions, that are beyond the reach of others. I opened up a self-help group for those affected by others' sexual behaviour and met one of our beautiful Co-operative members.
A member of;
Sexual Health Network
Youth Services Network
Family Violence Network.
WORKING WITH OTHERS
I worked with others in four self-help groups, those who; desire to live sober (22 yrs), affected by others' sexual behaviour (10 yrs), and affected by others anger & violence (3 yrs) that Stageaid (our coop member 'the oracle of all unimportant things') and I created and started up together.
PROGRAM FOR NEURODIVERGENT HUMANS
I developed and delivered a trauma–healing program merging it with my journals. The book was trialled and tested through 25 groups over five years for ages 12 - 25 yrs reprinting it two more times. In preparation to roll it out Nationally an internal and external assessment affirmed incredible outcomes we witnessed.
PATH TO RECONNECT
In January 2015, Ava introduced me to our beautiful cooperative member Zanderrs. The same month, I healed my fibromyalgia, and professionals affirmed my little beloved was indeed an Autistic PDA'er (Demand Avoidant) experiencing Complex Post-Traumatic Stress from 2 1/2 years of mainstream education. I removed my little beloved and became their 24/7 Neurodisability Carer and learning assistant, coining a more accurate description for our PDA acronym: Powerfully Determined Autodidacts. With only 15 hours off for the first year to support and heal my little beloved through their torment, I could not roll out or run the program, launch the book, attend the Networks or groups or anything else.
In 2016/17, I met our brilliant Rommy, our Cooperative member at a Disabilities resource centre. The vision for Roarheart to become a cooperative bubbled up at this time.
NEW DRAFTED BOOKS
I typed everything I could, learning on the fly, understanding and reconnecting to our beautiful, complex Neurodivergent minds, hearts and bodies whilst protecting ourselves from attitudes and approaches from beloveds and society as a whole to 'fix, change and cure us to fit'.
I did a few podcasts with my besty: Pink Bits of Autism and Fight & Fawn about PDA.
In 2020-21, it was an honour to be a Co-operative Member of the Neurodivergent Co Detail-Sharing my lived experiences and personal understanding of ND.
CREATING OUR ND CO-OP
Our Roarheart cooperatives are my beloved Neurodivergent ultra empathic, radically accepting humans. Beloveds who, to the best of our ability, protect, love and look after ourselves, identities, culture and flow, the natural way we love, play, learn, work, live, heal and express ourselves.
WHERE ARE WE AT?
Our first draft book is currently undergoing its fourth editing process before editing the recent 22 ebook series. In addition, we are creating our videos, programs, and app to be uploaded when they are finished. Here we do what we can, when we can and in the way we can.
We do things in our time and in our way.
"The most compassionate people are also the most boundaried" – Brene` Brown