ANGER KILLS LOVE
Updated: May 2, 2019
It's human to feel angry.
It's human to express anger.
Like kick the clothes basket.
Scream alone in the car.
Having an autistic neurology, I have no defence against the internal buildup that happens.
I am responsible for monitoring my internal being.
Prevention is better than cure.
I do allow myself to be angry.
Screaming in the car doesn't hurt the car.
However when my anger is directed to hurt, intimidate, manipulate, dominate or control this is harmful.
Especially to my autistic child who is very sensitive to vocal tones.
Very sensitive to others anger.
It shuts them down.
It triggers Fight Fright or Freeze
Anger triggers their trauma.
I know because whenever I have a tone my child knows and let's me know.
It's annoying however it's really good that they do because I can say what I mean and mean what I say without saying it mean.
I'm the adult.
Who is meant to be leading by example especially for a child who requires demonstration.
A child who needs compassion and understanding.
It's really good my child can speak up when they feel frightened.
I never could as a child.
I was abused as a child.
I never said anything to anyone.
And anger shut me down.
Anger killed my voice.
And my anger lost my child's trust.
For my child to have a voice;
To talk to me about all sorts of things.
Things I never did with my parents.
I am to be a safe human.
Anger Kills Love.
Love grows trust.
Trust gives voice to children.