SENSORY OVERLOAD – CHANGE WHAT I'M DOING

To own thyself be honest

And do something about it

My old mate who popped off some years go use to say to me,

"Remember not to react but act to solve

...

My anxiety was rising

Getting really agitated

My child starts happily talking

I am ignoring them

I'm working on my computer

In the kitchen

My child starts to raise their voice

Trying to get my attention

Annoyed I stop and look up

I start to feel more annoyed

My child's mouth is moving

But I can't hear "What?" My tone wasn't kind

My child repeats themselves I still can't hear and that annoys me more 'What's going on?' I ask myself.

Agitated I say, "I can't hear you"

Oh! 'Why can't I hear?"

''What is going on?'

The TV is making a loud noise

The neighbouring is mowing their lawns

The bloody dog is barking

My music is playing I'M SENSORY OVERLOADED

Who is responsible?

ME!

I shut the doors to shut out the mower ... the music outside ... the dogs barking

Plus shut the curtains to reduce the light I turned the TV down

And put on my noise canceling headphones!

My body quickly re-regulated

To an almost calm

Without needing to... Yell

OR

Have a crack at my child

Without needing to;

drink

drug

smoke

eat

starve

love bomb someone

overtalk

or

shutdown

Whenever my annoyance rises

It's my body's way to inform me there's too much information coming in from somewhere

In this case it was SOUND

So the easy solution is to reduce sound

Not reduce my child xx

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