SENSORY OVERLOAD – CHANGE WHAT I'M DOING

To own thyself be honest
And do something about it
My old mate who popped off some years go use to say to me,
"Remember not to react but act to solve
...
My anxiety was rising
Getting really agitated
My child starts happily talking
I am ignoring them
I'm working on my computer
In the kitchen
My child starts to raise their voice
Trying to get my attention
Annoyed I stop and look up
I start to feel more annoyed
My child's mouth is moving
But I can't hear "What?" My tone wasn't kind
My child repeats themselves I still can't hear and that annoys me more 'What's going on?' I ask myself.
Agitated I say, "I can't hear you"
Oh! 'Why can't I hear?"
''What is going on?'
The TV is making a loud noise
The neighbouring is mowing their lawns
The bloody dog is barking
My music is playing I'M SENSORY OVERLOADED
Who is responsible?
ME!
I shut the doors to shut out the mower ... the music outside ... the dogs barking
Plus shut the curtains to reduce the light I turned the TV down
And put on my noise canceling headphones!
My body quickly re-regulated
To an almost calm
Without needing to... Yell
OR
Have a crack at my child
Without needing to;
drink
drug
smoke
eat
starve
love bomb someone
overtalk
or
shutdown
Whenever my annoyance rises
It's my body's way to inform me there's too much information coming in from somewhere
In this case it was SOUND
So the easy solution is to reduce sound
Not reduce my child xx
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