WHAT DOES MY MIND AND BODY NEED TO BE OKAY?

I knew mental torment

I knew insanity

I knew terror

I knew the desire to die

I knew moments of screaming madness

I knew addiction

I knew inner dying

I knew there was something more to me

My mind is brilliant

My child showed me this

My mind is tricky

Like my child's

Its super sensitive

It's a super thinking machine

A crazy good creative beast

When it's over loaded

I don't load it up with;

people

places

things

food

no food

spending

alcohol

drugs

pills

social media (engagement)

romance

love drugging

or over sleeping

...

I simply become present and ask

What does my mind need to be ok?

Usually doing the next best thing

Or pause

Or breathe

What can I,

SEE?

TOUCH?

FEEL?

SMELL?

TASTE?

This is ok ... how I am right now

It's just my tricky mind

Doing tricky things

And doing TOO MUCH of something

So l slow it down

And get back to BEING

#Roarheart #FAN #Feminine and neurodiverse #24/7Carer #24/7AutisticCarer #Actually autistic #Autually autistic adult #Neurodiverse #Neurowonderful #asd #Autism acceptance #Autism #neurodivergence #Autisticaddiction #Regulation